none of us were angels...

don't feed me violence...
i know you think it's more than bad luck..
now now darling don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you now i love you yeah..
i've watched you slowly winding down for years..
you can't keep on like this
now is bad a time as any..(speeding cars-imogene heap)

Ok now it's 3 am and i'm not getting any sleep but i just don't want to go to bed.I can't sleep anyway.Jimmy was like shit.Depressed and all.All TRUE people are when they see what's really going on around them.I wish i could actually do something for him.
Anyway.i think i'm starting to fall for..well..this.Can't say anything more.
i i am scared shitless
i just look forward to it all
i just want to get to feel a little more alive and through THIS i do feel a whole lot different than i have deen feeling lately.I shouldn't really be writting any of this.But i'm so damn afraid of and overexcited about it all that if i keep it all inside i'm going to like..well explode.And God how i hate that other person.Well..anyway let's just say everyone is free to dcide who to love and i can really do nothing about it.I wouldn't change anything in the first place of someone's desisions even if i could.
i finally come to realise i'm a much better person than i thought i were in the first place.i also realise that this is why they all treat me like dirt.


i'm so afraid of being left on my own again that even the best of things look scary and full of ugly surprises.Maybe Lonely is who i'm destined to really be and it does suck the life out of me.